practice.
A
Frictional
Crip
Creative
Practice
The notion that human interaction can be a tool for social transformation is the link pin of this practice.
Processes of collective learning are designed here.
All activities aim to creatively + strategically interrogate
the ways in which ableism affects our lives.
Knowledge from the contexts of art, activism and scholarship support this endeavour.
bio.
Sandra is my name.
Based in the Netherlands.
I live with three dogs.
Love the outdoors.
Appreciative of hot beverages.
Am attentive when interacting with others.
Critical thinker.
Know how to hold a grudge.
Am continuously unlearning.
Researcher. Writer. Performance Designer.
Thrive when processing at my own pace.
Have experienced deep trust.
Know grief intimately.
Value a practice of gratitude.
Enjoy treating myself to a movie.
Am able to set a clear boundary.
Both big picture and detail oriented.
Work toward equity and belonging.
Strive for moments of interconnectivity.
Loyal. Thoughtful. Consistent.
Impatient when overwhelmed.
Strong character. Tender heart.
Body functions as a canary in a coal mine.
Activist. Organiser. Coach. Podcast host.
Love the smell of smoke in my coat after a ceremony.
Can bake a mean triple chocolate cake.
focus.
Invest in communities of complex embodiment
by developing powerful epistemic resources.
Articulate crip knowledge.
Develop a platform where crip storytelling is offered as a form of resistance.
objectives
Compile a vocabulary articulating crip knowledge.
practices of be-longing.
rooted in embodied knowledge
and theory.
why is this a frictional practice?
The word ‘friction’ refers to a public’s response to identifying and articulating phenomena of social injustice. As people with disability know intimately, manoeuvring normative able-bodied relations and built environments is taxing. Disabled folks bringing up the emotional labor involved in gaining access as a topic during a conversation, it causes friction. People feel discomfort as a result of hearing about this inconvenient reality, or respond with skepticism - are you sure your experience really happened the way you’re describing?!
By questioning a person’s testimony of what happened in a given situation, the listener withholds recognition and they undermine the speaker as a knower. When withholding recognition is caused by prejudice about the speaker’s social identity; their disability, race, ethnicity, religion, gender, sexuality, class, age, nationality, this form of discrimination is called epistemic injustice.
Initiating conversations on subjects society is inclined to dismiss, has been the core business of my practice from the beginning. By collectively leaning into the discomfort, friction is approached as a strategic tool and it becomes our guide to action.
When designing a process to unpack ableism in institutional infrastructures for example, asking questions can be a way to instrumentalize friction. Inquiry as a form of collective learning is capable of jolting people into awareness about the economy of knowledge. What knowledge is valued? Whose testimony style is structurally privileged? What are habits of attention in Dutch society that stem from this systemic silencing?
why is this a crip practice?
The word crip, is short for cripple. By using ‘crip’ in relation to this practice, I refer to an element of my identity and claim my personal experience of living with complex embodiment. With it, I resist the ideology that certain forms of embodiment are more valuable than others.
As a concept, crip refers to the process of ‘reclaiming’ by people with disabilities, which pertains to both the identity, the culture and ancestry. The word demands awareness for the ongoing practices of dehumanisation and discrimination of disabled people in society, and for the community building and activism as a result of this.
Immediately drawing attention to the sense of urgency required to be present in relationships and processes that I am affiliated with, crip allows me to swiftly introduce a theoretic framework emerging from the culture; with ideas such as the temporary status of able-bodied-ness for example, or the value of embodied knowledge and the crip perspective on normalcy.
why is articulation important in this creative practice?
The concept of disability as a container holds a variety of embodiment, much like the multitude of approaches the communities representing the differently abled have to social identity. Recognising what words could describe your lived experience of being in a human body, is a personal one - I trust you know best how to identify at this time.
Language can be an important tool to articulate one’s way of being in the world, even so words are not the only way to communicate. There’s a lot of value in crip knowledge about interconnectivity between body-minds; from the boldness of the Protractile movement of the DeafBlind, the precise imaginations of non-verbal Autistic knowers, and the pace of conversations within the Deaf community, to name but a few.
Languages, just as identities are not static. As individuals and communities we are in constant flux, searching for and stumbling upon words to describe our humanity as we go. Experimention with languaging is a principal quality of this practice; through navigating, negotiating, interpreting, translating, and inventing we make meaning while being in the world.
On this website, when referring to disabled folks I shall use different terms interchangeably, such as: handicapped folks, people with a disability, or crips. As I recognise the fluidity of language, identity and ability, my understanding of disability includes long-term conditions that are characterised by periods of good health interrupted by periods of illness or disability, other chronic physical and mental health conditions, chronic pain conditions, people identifying as Mad, neuro-diverse and neuroqueer folks.
Why is the crip community the focus of this practice?
As my specific brand of cripness greatly impacts my energy availability, I spend a lot of time at home while reading. Coming from a place of internalised ableism, disability identity denialism, my understanding of the interlocking systems of privilege and power has come about through rigorous and independent study of a rich archive of theory and community building practices.
For example, Ahsan’s book Shy Radicals, The Antisystemic Politics of the Militant Introvert (2017) made me aware that although I am experiencing a form of ongoing (social) isolation, I am a member of this “community that never gathers”. I learned a creative approach to being an activist while housebound, became part of ‘the occupy bedroom movement’ by using my social media platform to both connect and protest.
In recent years a new generation of intellectuals and disability activists have offered frameworks of radical inclusion grounded in lived experience, re-imagining disability (as well as gender). Gaining access to these materials has enhanced my understanding of the social power in Dutch healthcare situations I am embarking on, allowing me to self advocate. It hasn’t necessarily increased my epistemic traction because of the gap in collective hermeneutical resources, however the newfound knowledge supported me in recognising the concept of wholeness in disability as an identity, and a potential for thriving.
Disabled people have a right to access the epistemic intellectual resources that describe their experiences. Without ways of archiving and distributing the emotional labor of knowledge sharing with non-disabled folks, access making remains transactional and temporary. As such, people with more powerful social identities require underrepresented communities to keep educating them about the nature of their oppression. Whereas collective care practices that involve navigating (complex) access needs, are relational in nature and ongoing.
Because I have the privilege of being fluent in English, I had access to these books. Since the impact of understanding the politics of disablement has been life changing, a poignant question for me is: how can this rich archive of crip knowledge become avaible for Dutch speaking disabled folks in the Netherlands? So, I am currently compiling a Dutch crip lexicon, to make the language necessary for self-advocacy, crip culture literacy, and community building available to the community here.
why?
Do not waste time and energy explaining your humanity
to people committed to deny it.
Invest in your community instead.
Hannah Giorgis (2014)
process.
how?
how to design something that you cannot grab hold of?
Humans hardly ever revisit their convictions, attitudes and prejudices toward, and identities within social interaction. This is problematic, as this tendency causes an active ignorance of the privileged in society in regards to social injustice and inequity to be maintained.
The question ‘how do we get folks to engage in an experience of reflective thinking-by-doing?’ structures all processes in this practice. Theory, practices and perspectives from different disciplines are implemented to push this effort forward. Everything (and everyone) is subservient to the task; form follows function.
This is why my work can show up like gatherings, spaces, exchanges, an article, humming, performance lectures, a conversation, interventions, storytelling, podcasts, assemblies, an archive, collective reading, and trainings.
In CONNECT no.1 / SHAME for example, theory on the human meaning making system (Damasio, 1994), was combined with ideas on the performer participant feedback loop (Fischer-Lichte, 2008), interconnectivity (Bateson, 1972), and the body during aesthetic experience (Gallese, 2012). This subsequent theoretic framework led the spatial and interactive design for the performance, as well as informed the way the performers were coached. The team created an interactive performance, in which human connection, a video archive of people describing their embodied experience of shame, video projection was able to engage people in a reflective conversation about the ways in which shame impacts their ability to connect with others.
More about ways of working in this practice can be found under KIJK.
in what other way is the word process relevant here?
Disability Justice work is physically and emotionally draining. As marginalised people are being called upon to educate those in privileged positions about the existence of systems of power, oppressors evade their responsibility to act toward change.
My lived experience of access making in Dutch cultural institutions, is one of a policy-driven form of facilitation, equipped to offer solutions for individual access needs rather than actively contribute to eliminating the need for accessibility as the organisation’s infrastructure is built on principles of diversity, inclusivity and equity.
Since some institutions are developing an understanding of crip cultural competence, access work is outsourced to artists, organizers, writers and researchers that identify as disabled. Fueled by a background in activism, folks are highly motivated to educate publics about intersectionality, marginalized identities and the nature of their oppression.
As crip folks attempt to make up for the institution’s lack of engagement and accountability, it is not uncommon for a temporarily embedded artist to burn out by the end of the project. Being immersed in ableist cultural institutional infrastructures translates into self-advocating, while providing “information, resources, and evidence of oppression to privileged people who benefit from the very oppressive systems about which they demand to be educated”, (Berenstain, 2016).
When interactions with institutions demonstrate a lack of disability representation, co-creation and influence, they are masquerading as intellectual and social engagement of the institutions involved. Without infrastructures in place to navigate access, to develop ways of archiving the emotional labor of knowledge sharing, and a practice of transferring cultural competencies to new colleagues entering the institution, access making in Dutch cultural institutions is transactional and temporary. Whereas navigating (complex) access needs needs to be relational in nature and ongoing. Access should be a collective effort.
It is time for a turn, from access making toward belonging. We need to be investing our energy and efforts in building cross-cultural relationships and communities. Rather than show up for a one-off speaking engagement about ableism or a short-term project about access making, I choose to work with people, communities, organisations and institutions, that are ready to invest in relationship building and excited to embark on a collaborative process.
situatedness.
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This practice is based in the Netherlands; the fact that I am a white, chronically ill, and disabled woman located in and a citizen of this rich European country, comes with privileges. For me, this privilege comes with responsibilities; to educate myself, to be aware of systemic inequities and continuously work toward social justice.
A prevalent example of privilege that impacts this practice, is the fact that I was able to enter into the public educational system that is in place here. Which, among other subjects, provided me with the opportunity to study the English language from a young age. Following this, further public and private support structures allowed me to enter higher education programs as well, where I was trained to comprehend academic theory.
As interactions with my doctors at times literally left me speechless, I started looking for information to make meaning of the encounters. Most texts in which the doctor-patient relationship is analysed, are written in English and use formal academic language. This information isn’t accessible for everyone. I learned about the specifics of the power dynamic I was confronted with for example, and about concepts such as the medical industrial complex. Being able to access these knowledges, allowed me to understand and subsequently find the words to articulate my lived experiences. Crucial knowledge if you need to advocate for yourself during consultations, to ask follow-up questions and speak up when being dismissed as a ‘knower’.
This trajectory of learning introduced me to disability studies, crip theory, Black Feminist thought, crip culture, practices of collective care, and neuroqueer intellectuals that share their knowledge online through oral practices or zines. In recent years, younger generations of theorists that identify as crip are totally re-imagining disability - which is very exciting!
These teachings have changed my life, they showed me that there is value in the perspective of a disabled person and that there are unique way of knowing in complex embodiment that can actually benefit society as a whole. For this I am very thankful, and I feel a responsibility to pay it forward.
Education is power. Having access to education is privilege. Equal access to knowledge is a collective responsibility. As empowering crip folks is the primary objective in this practice, a poignant question for me to answer is: how can the rich archive of theory and community building practices that is available in the English language, become accessible to Dutch speaking disabled folks?
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In Dutch society individual independence is celebrated, it is okay to offer help but not to ask for it. As being busy is an external symbol of social and economic status, care is being outsourced, practices of community building seem to be diminishing and the number of socially isolated people is growing exponentially. Grassroots movements such as Disability Justice or transformative justice as a form of community care, are not common here. It is almost counter-cultural.
The culture of this practice however is firmly rooted in collective care, a result of being in relationship with my partner René Nagtegaal. As we both experienced crip bodyminds dealing with pain, fatigue, neurodiversity and immobility at one time or another, we continuously worked to learn from lived experience and were passionate about sharing these insights with others.
In September of 2021 René passed away suddenly. This presented me with an overwhelming grief, stretching out in layers over time – the awareness: how deep we love and impact each other. Remarkably, instantly after he died I had two major realizations. Firstly, how the culture of a relationship uniquely exists as a shared phenomenon. When a person dies the intricacies of being together cannot be shared anymore. The person I was with you, has actually dissolved alongside you. The countless intricate threads woven between us are cut; the energy that was flowing in our feedback loop a noment ago, has no clear direction or purpose now. The second thing I realized, is the intrinsic need for a commitment to our plans toward crip literacy in the Netherlands. René is no longer here to build a crip empire with, to witness ableist doctors of internal medicine, to share anger knowledges with, to eat pizza with, to cook for, to share spacetime with our furry friends – but I want to keep building, constructing a platform to share what crip knowledges we were able to articulate.Paying tribute to crip ancestry in this practice therefor means: honouring what René and I learned from each other. Honouring a culture that we developed through staying in communication and connection over time. So you’ll find blogs he wrote, references to our conversations, and perhaps pictures or video’s, as these are all ways to include René as I move forward.
Our community-of-two was able to carve out a culture that acknowledges the value of emotional intelligence, vulnerability, radical slowness, empathy, neurodiversity, navigating needs, sharing, non-verbal embodied knowledge, interdependence, resource sharing, disabled mutual aid, recognizing conditions and boundries th,t su port thriving, communication, access intimacy, crip joy and the ongoingness of be-longing. -
Resistant communities of complex embodiment don’t gather IRL. And care is often outsourced in the Netherlands. complicates building collective care networks, sharing and validating experiences. I am researching as well as practicing how an online sharing of crip knowledge can be a transformative instrument, in the reorientation towards future spaces and structures where it is considered intelligible.
Let us unflinchingly respect the full spectrum of feelings that human beings experience.
Dr. Joanne Cacciatore
acknowledgements.
gratitude.
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